World of Nadiah

My body is still aching from yesterday's journey. We had great time together as a group. Well, even though it felt awkward, it was great actually. I felt awkward because I'm not very very very good with socializing. Why is it socializing is so difficult? I'm not a social girl. When I refer to socializing, it's not like very social, it's like cheerful enough to start the conversation, well, sort of. If I have a choice; for example in a situation where there were a lot of people in a party or ceremony, whether to just silent or to talk with other guests, I definitely will sat at one corner with my drink and will just watching people. Seriously. Except, I'm on influenced by somebody or something, maybe I won't be so silent... I said maybe... :p

Oh, btw, this is our journey there... We went there just to have fun and spent time together as a group... I guess. Well, not entirely sure. But, what I'm sure of, it's not my money. We used the sponsored money... lol. I'm just fitting my butt in. Hihi.

Which one is more difficult? To be a man or a woman in this globalized world. I once ask myself, why it's so hard to be a woman? Why? Well, somebody told me that, I said like that because I'm a woman. Men also will ask that question to themselves except it's just we don't know it. So, is it hard to be a man? To me it is hard to be a woman. Why? Bunch of ridiculous things that man usually won't care about it but we, women always care about it. Especially emotional part. How sensitive a man is, he won't be as sensitive as woman especially during PMS or pregnancy. PMS? For those who can control it, well, they may say it's an easy task. But, for those who experienced to much hormonal imbalances will nod their head as they read this. Are you?

I don't know where to begin or what to begin with or who to begin with. The main point is it's hurt so much. I feel like rubbish when compare to other people. Why I have to face in this sucks life. People hate me? Why? I want to know why!!! They cover themselves with masks and be nice to me but 'kill' me from back? What kind of person is that. Why did everybody need to be hypocrite. Is it some kind of culture, religion or inhereditary disease? Such a lame thing to be practice. I'm totally in pain, pain that I've been collect for all these years. Where do I have to throw all this pain? Do I have to sunk it in the sea or buried it on top of the hill or burn it into ashes and dust? I don't know the answer. If I know I wouldn't be in this kind of pain. It's totally excruciating!!!